Finding Hope In Judas

The Gospel of Matthew has long been my favorite. Mostly, I love the Sermon on the Mount in chapters 5-7. I also dig the promise of God’s presence with us that bookends the entire narrative (1:23, 28:20).

Another plus for me, though, is the fact that Judas gets a fair shake. I know, I shouldn’t care because this is the guy that betrayed Jesus. Hang with me, though. It’s worth it.

In Matthew 27, Jesus has been betrayed and is about to be condemned by Pilate and the people (acting as puppets on behalf of the religious authorities). Before all of this, though, Judas makes one last appearance.

We are told that “he repented and brought back the thirty pieces of silver to the chief priests and the elders” (27:3, NRSV). Further, he openly admits that he “sinned by betraying innocent blood” (27:4). The response by those who were supposed to be his religious leaders, his pastors in a way, is cold and unconcerned.

What is that to us? See to it yourself.”

That is the actual, screwed up quote from 27:4. After this, with no hope in sight, Judas flees the temple and hangs himself. In the words of the chorus in Jesus Christ Superstar, “So long Judas. Poor, old Judas” (PLEASE watch this somewhat corny scene. It is disturbingly moving).

Judas repents. Do we really get that? The man REPENTS. He realizes his sin and tries to fix it, only to be partnered with Christ as a victim of the authorities.

It’s true that Luke and John (especially John) smear Judas pretty badly. He doesn’t repent in any other Gospel. That doesn’t mean, however, that we shouldn’t take this seriously.

Have you ever royally screwed up? Yes, you have. I have, too. We all have.

I am also willing to bet that all of us have tried to make up for our failings, only to be disappointed by the results. Like Judas, we know what it is to feel trapped by seemingly hopeless and irreparable circumstances. Often we fall deeper into our destructive spirals, fulfilling what appears to be the end of his story.

I want to propose we try something different, though. Remember how Jesus and Judas are both victims of corrupt authority? Well Jesus doesn’t stay that way. In fact, He defeats the deathly powers wielded by the Empire. He rises again, assuring those who repent of their sin and believe in Him that they will share in eternal life.

So if Judas repented and recognized Jesus as innocent, meaning He was who He said He was, perhaps the story of the traitor ends differently. I believe there is a chance Judas is at peace, reconciled to God. I also believe our stories can end this way.

Instead of continuing down the path of destruction, acting as though we are unworthy of anything good until we meet a miserable end, how about we repent? Why not turn around and realize that just as there is hope for the one who betrayed God in the Flesh, there is also hope for you and I! Our story is not over until we are gone from here, and even then, we need to remember Jesus’ resurrection promise.

As long as breath remains in our lungs, we can make a different choice and take a different path. I don’t know where you are in life or what spiral you feel trapped in, but I do know this: there is hope for you, just as I now know there is hope for me.

In Christ, even the darkest and most dismal circumstamces can be turned into occasions for repentance and positive transformation. A betrayer can become an advocate, a sinner can become a saint, and the lost can be found. No matter where you are in your life’s journey, I hope you will join me in learning from poor Judas. After all, the story may not end how we think.

Peace be with you!

The Gospel of the Epic Fail

But just when he had resolved to do this, an angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, “Joseph, son of David, do not be afraid to take Mary as your wife, for the child conceived in her is from the Holy Spirit. She will bear a son, and you are to name him Jesus, for he will save his people from their sins.” — Matthew 1:20-21, NRSV

Many of us recognize this as the beginning of Jesus’ birth narrative from the Gospel according to Matthew. For those of us who don’t, fear not! Here is the chapter, just follow along and it will make sense.

Our story begins with a very bad situation. Mary, a betrothed young woman in 1st Century Palestine, is pregnant… and it is not a baby related to her soon-to-be husband. In the context I am writing from (21st Century United States), there would be some shame involved, lots of anger and hurt feelings, but we typically don’t shun or kill such women. In Mary’s time, that was a real possibility. The “public disgrace” referenced in verse 19 would have been pretty immense. Even if Joseph had decided to “dismiss her quietly,” a real favor back then despite our modern perception of relationships, there would still not have been much chance of her pregnancy going unnoticed.

The question here is not about Mary’s virginity. Matthew implies that she is one who is “pure” in that way because of his reference to Isaiah 7:14 in verse 23, as well as his description of the child being “from the Holy Spirit” (1:18, 20). The readers and angels are aware of this fact, but the other people involved are not. As far as the story goes, Mary is in the midst of what we would call an “epic failure.” She is in a precarious situation that results from her perceived mistakes, regardless of the truth you and I are treated to.

Interesting, though, that God chooses this situation as the occasion by which He will reveal the divine plan of salvation. The child who, for all intents and purposes, shouldn’t exist will actually be the one “to save his people from their sins” (1:21). Let that soak in for a moment.

… Done?

I hope the gravity of this teaching is starting to settle within you. You see, we serve a God who is not only able but eager to take the moments of our humiliation and disgrace and turn them into occasions by which we may grow closer to Him and enable others to do so. Further, that redemption leaves us marked as witnesses who can testify to the grace of God that transforms our sad stories into lessons for the edification and growth of others, all to the glory of God.

For those of you who haven’t had a chance to read up on this blog, you may not know that I was fired from the first and only ministry job I’ve ever had. The situation surrounding it was one of total disgrace and brokenness, but the story didn’t end there.

In the time since, I have received counseling. I have experienced the unyielding love of friends and family. I have started this blog and writing my own devotional book, wherein the lessons I’ve learned can (hopefully) be of benefit to others. My marriage and other relationships are stronger, my faith and understanding of God’s grace have grown, and my testimony is enriched in ways I’ve never experienced.

Does all of this blessed “stuff” mean that my life is easier or that I didn’t have to take responsibility for my actions? No, not at all. Faith doesn’t make life easier. Say it with me.

FAITH DOESN’T MAKE LIFE EASIER.

Faith does, however, make life better. It makes me appreciate the grace that I have received directly and indirectly from God. Faith helps me see that my journey has not been in vain, and the same can be true for you.

Hear the Good News: No matter your own “epic fails,” no matter the darkness that lives within you or haunts your past, God is able and very willing to take and redeem all that you consider humiliating and disgraceful about yourself. God stands ready to forgive us and greatly enrich our experience of this life, if we would just turn and say, “Yes.” Within you is the image of God that, when embraced, has the power to shine a transformative light for the entire world to see.

I pray that you will join me in learning from Mary’s inspiring story. Her and Joseph’s “yes” to the designs of God paved the way for God’s revelation of incomparable love in Jesus Christ. We all have our humiliation or disgrace, but nothing is too strong or dark for God to change and enlighten. It is never too late for us to experience the blessed life God wants for us all.

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Peace be with you!